Not Always Pounds

I got insanely frustrated while I was training for the half marathon because the pounds weren’t dropping like I had expected them too. Hell, I was averaging 30+ miles some weeks. Alright, I mean, in all honestly, I lost 15lbs in 10 weeks. Which is great, right? RIGHT? I know I’m being crazy. Whatever. Bare with me.

Something happens when you turn 30. It’s like your body says, “Look here, bitch. You had 30 years to handle this and instead you fucked around. So, now it stays. You’re welcome. Order the nachos, chubby bunny.” The pounds just don’t fly off. Instead, the VERY slowly creep down and as soon as you think you’ve had your “swoosh” the scale spikes and you shed a little tear.

When I was 28/29 and in my prime losing weight I was dropping 3lbs or so a week. At 31 I lose about 1.5lbs on a GREAT week. Which is still a healthy amount, but half of what I was expecting. No, I wasn’t expecting to lose 30lbs in 10 weeks, but I was hoping to see at least 22’ish. 

THANKFULLY – and I mean, praise Jesus thankfully, I took before and after pictures (two weeks into training and day before the half).

 Buh-bye back fat.

So, while I was beyond happy with those results, it also forced me to take a hard look at my sanity levels. The results were great, but the way I was feeling while training mentally, was not. (You know, since this board has basically started again.) I really don’t want to get back into the “weight loss” mentality, as much as I really want to focus on just how I feel. My overall health. Performing as a machine. It’s such a fine line to walk for me. I’ve always struggled finding the healthy/unhealthy balance in weight loss and physical/mental health.

I flipped through my WW tracker and realized I’d been consuming a ton of processed crap because I could have more of the fat free crap for less points than the real crap. Tons of artificial sweeteners. Soda was/is creeping back into my soda free (for nearly 2 years) lifestyle. Grabbing a 100 calorie snack pack of mini banana muffins instead of just grabbing a banana. Things like that.

This is 100% against my belief system in food, so I’m not sure why I’m doing it. My heart of hearts believes in eating REAL food: plain greek yogurt, sweetened with agave and fresh fruit, fresh fruits and veggies, healthy fats, etc.

I struggle with ease/convenience over what I know my body needs and responds well to. I need to get back to meal planning and prepping.

This is the Weight Watchers debacle I always find myself in though. I LOVE Weight Watchers, but I also obsess over points. I will lose track of what my body needs so I can focus solely on points instead. Because seriously – who wants to spend 9 points on an avocado even though I know it’s good for me?

So, I’ve been loosely tracking points since the half marathon. I’m trying to find my Real Food Roots again – albeit, some days are better than others.